8.30.2006
Supreme
There's a Hindu story about Krishna multiplying himself so he can dance wildly and passionately with each of his beloved milkmaids. The dance goes on and on, but the instant one of the milkmaids thinks Krishna is dancing with her alone, he disappears...
8.29.2006
Something new
First time I ever tried paintballing. Sounded like a lot of fun so why not...? ..I thought before...
Bottom line: imagine this trashy, dirty, wet huge place with all sorts of obstacles and places to hide behind, mask on, anti-bullet vest, amo and attack!! Being the only girl there explains perhaps why I was aimed to a lot and why now I need a crane to get out of bed in the morning...All the running, crawling, sneaking and hiding made me very aware of muscles I even didn't know they existed. Not to mention the nice collection of bruises I have right now, all sizes, shapes & colors.
But nevertheless, nothing is more rewarding than an experience where all prime instincts are put in motion!
Victory!!!!!!!!!!
"...Blood dries up like rain..."
Bottom line: imagine this trashy, dirty, wet huge place with all sorts of obstacles and places to hide behind, mask on, anti-bullet vest, amo and attack!! Being the only girl there explains perhaps why I was aimed to a lot and why now I need a crane to get out of bed in the morning...All the running, crawling, sneaking and hiding made me very aware of muscles I even didn't know they existed. Not to mention the nice collection of bruises I have right now, all sizes, shapes & colors.
But nevertheless, nothing is more rewarding than an experience where all prime instincts are put in motion!
Victory!!!!!!!!!!
"...Blood dries up like rain..."
8.22.2006
The best lyrics - today's theme
"Now I'm here can you see me
'Cos I'm out on my own
When the room goes cold tell me you can feel me
..........'cos I'm here
Here I am, can you see me
Passing through, on my way
To a place I'd been to only in my dreams... before
In a world of delusion
Never turn your back on a friend
'Cause you can count your real true friends on one hand
..........through life
There are those that deceive you
There are those That'll let you down
Is there someone out there that would die for you
..........thought not
Live your life with a passion
Everything you do, do well
You only get out of life what you put in
..........so they say
In a world of confusion
People never say that what they mean
If you want a straight answer go look for one
..........right now
In a room full of strangers
Do you stand with your back to the wall
Do you sometimes feel like you're on the outside
..........looking in ?
You can make your own luck
You create your destiny
I believe you have the power if you want to
..........it's true
You can do what you want to
If you try a little bit harder
A little bit of faith goes a long way
..........it does
Are we here for a reason ?
I'd like to know just what you think
It would be nice to know what happened when we die
..........wouldn't it ?
There are some who are wise
There are some who are born naive
I believe that there are some that must have lived before
..........don't you ?
As for me, well I'm thinking
You gotta keep an open mind
But I hope that my life's not an open and shut case.
Extra Sensory Perception
Life After Death, telepathy
Can the soul live on and travel through space and time ?
You know I feel so clated
'Cause I'm about to find it out
And when I know all the answers
Maybe then I'll come back
..........to feel you in
You don't be alarmed now
If I try to contact you
If things go missing or get moved around ...it's me
And don't disbelieve it
No matter what your `friends' might say
We'll meet up again some place some way
..........one day."
Iron Maiden - The Apparition
'Cos I'm out on my own
When the room goes cold tell me you can feel me
..........'cos I'm here
Here I am, can you see me
Passing through, on my way
To a place I'd been to only in my dreams... before
In a world of delusion
Never turn your back on a friend
'Cause you can count your real true friends on one hand
..........through life
There are those that deceive you
There are those That'll let you down
Is there someone out there that would die for you
..........thought not
Live your life with a passion
Everything you do, do well
You only get out of life what you put in
..........so they say
In a world of confusion
People never say that what they mean
If you want a straight answer go look for one
..........right now
In a room full of strangers
Do you stand with your back to the wall
Do you sometimes feel like you're on the outside
..........looking in ?
You can make your own luck
You create your destiny
I believe you have the power if you want to
..........it's true
You can do what you want to
If you try a little bit harder
A little bit of faith goes a long way
..........it does
Are we here for a reason ?
I'd like to know just what you think
It would be nice to know what happened when we die
..........wouldn't it ?
There are some who are wise
There are some who are born naive
I believe that there are some that must have lived before
..........don't you ?
As for me, well I'm thinking
You gotta keep an open mind
But I hope that my life's not an open and shut case.
Extra Sensory Perception
Life After Death, telepathy
Can the soul live on and travel through space and time ?
You know I feel so clated
'Cause I'm about to find it out
And when I know all the answers
Maybe then I'll come back
..........to feel you in
You don't be alarmed now
If I try to contact you
If things go missing or get moved around ...it's me
And don't disbelieve it
No matter what your `friends' might say
We'll meet up again some place some way
..........one day."
Iron Maiden - The Apparition
Boredom or depression?
Which one is which? I've come to think that at high levels there's actually no difference between these two. It's just the human necessity of putting everything in categories and hence eliminate the unknown of which we are so terribly afraid...
Reasons? Thousands...
For one thing, that people are careless, the more we immerse into life, the more indifferent we become towards the ones around us. Family & friends are no more than some concepts that are part of our world, but somehow we lost the emotions and feelings on the way. People laugh less, forget how it feels to surprise each other, forgot to play games (and I mean pure games and not cheesy, lame, psychological games),carelessly go on with "ordinary life", faces become more expresionless, ...Where are the small daily delights gone and why does everything has to spin so fast, leaving behind the joy? Life should be like an amusement park, you get excited, happy, you get scared too at times, but overall it feels good.
Whatever you might want to call this, it does have no excuse in the end, but it won't change either.
So, then, what is it? Boredom or depression?
Reasons? Thousands...
For one thing, that people are careless, the more we immerse into life, the more indifferent we become towards the ones around us. Family & friends are no more than some concepts that are part of our world, but somehow we lost the emotions and feelings on the way. People laugh less, forget how it feels to surprise each other, forgot to play games (and I mean pure games and not cheesy, lame, psychological games),carelessly go on with "ordinary life", faces become more expresionless, ...Where are the small daily delights gone and why does everything has to spin so fast, leaving behind the joy? Life should be like an amusement park, you get excited, happy, you get scared too at times, but overall it feels good.
Whatever you might want to call this, it does have no excuse in the end, but it won't change either.
So, then, what is it? Boredom or depression?
8.18.2006
Change of plans
Looks like the Quad will have to wait...though I was so close to buying it this very week. 150 cc, max. speed 120, a quad with some modifications that I'm not very sure they were quite ok...But still...I almost had it :)
Problem is the damn driving licence. As much as I tried to avoid I still have to go do again the driving test. It was pointing out the blinding obvious the whole time, but I refused to accept that this is the only option.
So, stay off the roads, next week I'm driving! :(
Problem is the damn driving licence. As much as I tried to avoid I still have to go do again the driving test. It was pointing out the blinding obvious the whole time, but I refused to accept that this is the only option.
So, stay off the roads, next week I'm driving! :(
8.16.2006
Hall of Lame - August awards
And this month, 1st place goes to the TV serie called "Weeds". Though a great, cool idea finally made its way up to the surface, after the 8th episode, apparently the producers didn't know what to do anymore with it and quite obvioulsy it turned into something that lame that you actually keep on watching it hoping that the director was suffering of temporary insanity and he'll recover.
And guess what? The budget was cut off for this serie. Wonder why.
2nd place goes to the amazing August weather in South Germany. To be accurate, this is November weather and just when you think it cannot get any worse, the weather does show you that it can. If you dare to complain about it, someone will always say:"Oh, this is much better. Two years ago I was wearing a winter jacket in July"...as if this is meant to bring you any comfort.
And last but not least, 3rd place goes to all the men that think you'll fall right in their arms after their few, but very lame attempts of getting your attention in any way.
And guess what? The budget was cut off for this serie. Wonder why.
2nd place goes to the amazing August weather in South Germany. To be accurate, this is November weather and just when you think it cannot get any worse, the weather does show you that it can. If you dare to complain about it, someone will always say:"Oh, this is much better. Two years ago I was wearing a winter jacket in July"...as if this is meant to bring you any comfort.
And last but not least, 3rd place goes to all the men that think you'll fall right in their arms after their few, but very lame attempts of getting your attention in any way.
8.15.2006
Today
Being round you is driving me crazy
Watching you run is making me lazy
You're trying to buy a place in my head
Telling me lines I've already read
Speaking my name to try to confuse me
Say it again you're starting to lose me
That's alright I'm okay
It happens every single day
It's all the same
But I'm not blind
It's all about you not me
It's all about the things
That you're expecting me to be
There's not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give
It's all about you not me
It's all about you not me
You're building my prison brick by brick
Eating your words is making me sick
You get what you want
Cause nothing is sacred
You're reading my mind
And leaving me naked
You say I gotta give before I receive it
One of these days I'll believe it.
It's all about you not me
It's all about the things
That you're expecting me to be
There's not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give
It's all about you not me
It's all about you not me
[Lyrics: John Petrucci & Desmond Child - Dream Theater]
Watching you run is making me lazy
You're trying to buy a place in my head
Telling me lines I've already read
Speaking my name to try to confuse me
Say it again you're starting to lose me
That's alright I'm okay
It happens every single day
It's all the same
But I'm not blind
It's all about you not me
It's all about the things
That you're expecting me to be
There's not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give
It's all about you not me
It's all about you not me
You're building my prison brick by brick
Eating your words is making me sick
You get what you want
Cause nothing is sacred
You're reading my mind
And leaving me naked
You say I gotta give before I receive it
One of these days I'll believe it.
It's all about you not me
It's all about the things
That you're expecting me to be
There's not enough time to live
And all that you're expecting me to give
It's all about you not me
It's all about you not me
[Lyrics: John Petrucci & Desmond Child - Dream Theater]
8.09.2006
feed the brain!
http://www.y-origins.com
http://everything2.com/
http://www.erowid.org
http://www.howstuffworks.com
http://www.auralmoon.com
http://www.conclaveobscurum.ru/
Any suggestions? Please, feel free to post any.
http://everything2.com/
http://www.erowid.org
http://www.howstuffworks.com
http://www.auralmoon.com
http://www.conclaveobscurum.ru/
Any suggestions? Please, feel free to post any.
Back to the Mothership...
Seems like an eternity since the weekend is gone and another eternity till the next one (doesn't it sound pathetic to live for the weekends...?)
Couldn't help not to think back at A'dam though...this city is actually every doper's dream, go and live there, eternally happy & high. And that reminded me of the fact that when we got there at night, we were just wondering the streets, in a particular area, full of pubs, bars, clubs and coffee shops. As you walk down there, you'd here whispers from the sides like "coca..coca..coca.." And even so, there was this girl, living exactly in that area..she just came righ out of the house, walking her little cotton white, puffy poodle, among all these drunk, high people, as if she was in the middle of a green, peacefull forest.
Respect for that!
How can anyone lead such a normal life in a dreamy place like A'dam? That's why I say that the best things in life are the ones that you mostly miss than have.
And now, switch back to the Alien Mood and work, work, work...
Couldn't help not to think back at A'dam though...this city is actually every doper's dream, go and live there, eternally happy & high. And that reminded me of the fact that when we got there at night, we were just wondering the streets, in a particular area, full of pubs, bars, clubs and coffee shops. As you walk down there, you'd here whispers from the sides like "coca..coca..coca.." And even so, there was this girl, living exactly in that area..she just came righ out of the house, walking her little cotton white, puffy poodle, among all these drunk, high people, as if she was in the middle of a green, peacefull forest.
Respect for that!
How can anyone lead such a normal life in a dreamy place like A'dam? That's why I say that the best things in life are the ones that you mostly miss than have.
And now, switch back to the Alien Mood and work, work, work...
8.07.2006
A-maze-ing!!!
And this is how the story goes: 4 people in one car (that later became the spaceship), 3 sleeping bags (out of which one was broken), a stinky tent, a 6 hours drive through rain, a cold, cold night and a huge stroke of good luck.
A'dam is always the place to return to, always alive and in perpetual motion. Every time you go there, it has a new story for you, a new riddle to solve, a new way to see the life and beyond...
Reality lies in the eyes of the beholder!
A'dam is always the place to return to, always alive and in perpetual motion. Every time you go there, it has a new story for you, a new riddle to solve, a new way to see the life and beyond...
Reality lies in the eyes of the beholder!
8.04.2006
We are in space
Though this was a personal weekend slogan, yesterday thousands of other people adhered to this idea, just yesterday. And that was because company's summer summit took place in Holiday Park (http://www.holidaypark.de)...So, quite literally Mothership took us in space...
There's one main thing for which this amusement park is worth big time and that is the GeForce roller-coaster, which takes you to a height of 62 meters (as a 20 floors building almost), turns you on a side at some 74 degrees angle and goes down in a 82 degrees angle, which basically means this: you see the cart going up and up and suddenly the tracks are gone and you have no idea where you go…(This was to quote a friend of mine)
And when you think that on top of all this, this harmless little roller-coaster is catching the speed of 120 km/h in only 3 seconds (making it the fastest in the world from this point of view), you can easily understand now the slogan “We are in space”
Funny is that none of these things are real joy unless you really lose control. So easy to say “let it go” and so hard to do. Most of us have the very false impression that we are in control of our lives and destinies. So, we wouldn’t try any of these crazy things because we like being in control and we like to know that we’re safe. We love our life exactly as it is.
So sad that we can’t even answer who are we and where do we come from, but we feel we’re in control…
There’s only one thing we can do: enjoy the ride!
WE ARE IN SPACE!!!
There's one main thing for which this amusement park is worth big time and that is the GeForce roller-coaster, which takes you to a height of 62 meters (as a 20 floors building almost), turns you on a side at some 74 degrees angle and goes down in a 82 degrees angle, which basically means this: you see the cart going up and up and suddenly the tracks are gone and you have no idea where you go…(This was to quote a friend of mine)
And when you think that on top of all this, this harmless little roller-coaster is catching the speed of 120 km/h in only 3 seconds (making it the fastest in the world from this point of view), you can easily understand now the slogan “We are in space”
Funny is that none of these things are real joy unless you really lose control. So easy to say “let it go” and so hard to do. Most of us have the very false impression that we are in control of our lives and destinies. So, we wouldn’t try any of these crazy things because we like being in control and we like to know that we’re safe. We love our life exactly as it is.
So sad that we can’t even answer who are we and where do we come from, but we feel we’re in control…
There’s only one thing we can do: enjoy the ride!
WE ARE IN SPACE!!!
8.02.2006
Funny mood
Funny mood, strange day, awesome to be alive!
Must be some time loop in the middle...but yesterday evening when I went to bed, it was still August...this morning, when I woke up, it was October. Spooky weather,I'm telling you. From 30 degrees to 16 over night??
Or is it because of the yesterday's cocktail that lead to another and another one and suddenly, the cubicle farm seems a much better place and Mothership takes us back to where we belong.
It's hard to say goodbye, but home just doesn't change!
Must be some time loop in the middle...but yesterday evening when I went to bed, it was still August...this morning, when I woke up, it was October. Spooky weather,I'm telling you. From 30 degrees to 16 over night??
Or is it because of the yesterday's cocktail that lead to another and another one and suddenly, the cubicle farm seems a much better place and Mothership takes us back to where we belong.
It's hard to say goodbye, but home just doesn't change!
8.01.2006
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